Writer's Block: What? Everyone Doesn't Like Me?

2008-03-25T18:05:50Z

Why do you think it is some people don't get along with you?

Ummm... everyone gets along with me... I'm awesome :)

Here we go

2008-03-16T16:50:00Z

Okay... so I'm not really sure what to write but what I am sure about is by the end of this entry I will have somehow come up with 1,000 things.

I had a friend ask me to join and I've promised for bout a month now to actually do it - so here I am.

Let's see... what's on my mind today? Alot of what I wanted to write about has escaped me. I went for a long drive early this morning. I do that quite often. I like to just get in my truck turn the radio up (I prefer radio over cd's) and drive- to places I've never been before- go on back roads and just stare out the windows. I think about so much or sometimes nothing at all when I do this. It makes me feel free and helps me to escape- not from anything in particular- just the day to day world. I retreat into myself and leave all the chores, errands and worries at home. I think about more wordly things. I almost always bring my dog. She's a 7 yr old Rottweiler. I find so much comfort in her. Today I also brought my roomies dog- a 2 yr old yorky named face- I know- strange name- I dont feel like getting into that story right now! I found a road named limber lost and for some reason that really amused me. :)

I also wanted to mention that I am a lil peeved about the lack of font options on this journal! Strange I know but I often change my mood and with that my whole persona. My clothes, jewelry, hat, speech and activities change daily dependant on the way I'm feeling for the day. I like to think that I have many different "faces". I consider myself and extremely light hearted- carefree- funloving- optimistic person but also something deeper. I want the world to be something it never will. Sometimes I tend to live in this small bubble. My own child- like innocence that pops up in my adulthood. I understand that their are many situations such as war, poverty, evil - and these things will always be around. I just truly don't understand why they are. I like to call myself an employed hippy :) LOL That may offend some hippies out there but I dont really care :)

That's another thing- I'm extremely blunt, open and honest. If you want to know something about me I will tell you just about anything. If you want an opinion on an issue I will be 100% truthful. But if you are the type to fish for compliments or want an "oh that looks nice" even if it doesnt- then don't come to me. I often offend people- not on purpose but for the reasons above. Those close to me understand that I am an extremely warm and giving individual but I have a HUGE case of foot in mouth syndrome- ALWAYS! If you're sensitive- stay away! I'm making myself sound like a bitch but thats truly not the case... like I said I'm just overly outwardly honest!

I just started reading "What the bleep do we know" sorry I dont care to go get the book to tell you the author. It's a phenominal book. It deals a lot with the subconscious and the different perspectives of life. It is also a movie for those who don't enjoy reading. I found the movie to be far too distracting and out of sequence. If you see it you'll understand what i mean- I think...n e ways- I haven't truly read in awhile ( other than astrology books- that will be my next paragraph). I'm very much enjoying this book. I love to learn new things because most of life amazes me and makes me think. Actually, now I will get the book cus I want to type a line for you thats in it - okay I guess it's a few lines... "Remember when you were five years old and you kept asking, 'Why?' ... What happened to that five year old?... Each day was filled with new discoveries and new questions. SO what is the difference between then and now? Good question!" Well thats how I always feel- I never lost that five year old and I never care too. I wish everyone still posessed that yearning. I believe the world would be a different place if more people questioned existence. I guess this is a good time to throw in that I am an Atheist- mainly because of that obnoxious personality trait of asking why and how. Most any question about religion or God when I was younger was answered through: No one knows why- it just is! That was never good enough for me- Science however has answers- and is open to both change and growth. It can be proven right or wrong. Christianity in particular to me is a combination of unrealistic expectations, outrageous mythical circumstances and harsh unnecessary lessons all rolled into a scary children's book AKA the bible! Anyone is more than welcome to comment on anything I have to say but you should be forewarned- I wil have a discussion, I will explain my views and I will stay open minded however I will not argue or fight. If it becomes an "I'm right" and "You're Wrong" Scenario- I will simply change the subject.

So astrology.. I'm not sure if it's true or real because I dont totally know how it came about or the explanation behind it but I do love reading about it. It both occupies and amuses me. Most everything I read about a Sagittarius totally pertains to who I am as a person. I won't get into what that means it's interesting if you want to look it up. I'm not talking about reading the horoscopes in the local newspaper or the lame myspace descriptions that get posted. I buy real strology books that seem legit. A lot of what I read I can picture a person that matches up with that sign- it's a fun game to play :). The books that I buy are not overgeneralized or broad. They get very specific into every aspect of a human beings life. This is one of the reasons I am more inclined to have some "faith" in it. Again, because I am always accepting of new thoughts and ideas I am not saying that astrology is an absolute. It could be completely bogus but from what I've read and shared with others, the more and more I get into it the more accurate it seems. Okay enought about that.

Well my wrists are starting to hurt and I'm getting a little antsy ( I have no idea how to spell that). I'm done for now. Don't expect a lot of updates- I am a very "in the moment" and adventurous soul. I dont spend a lot of time sitting down. But I'll check back in once in awhile. I hope you enjoyed my mindless ramblings!

Adios!

amyzingaimless

Writer's Block: What? Everyone Doesn't Like Me?

Here we go